I’ll try to skip the usual “it’s been a long time since I last posted” spill, and get straight to the point this time.
So many things are just frustrating and confusing me. I see this and that and I push to do what is right, but there’s times where I just feel worn out. It’s been almost five years and I have no one to confide in here. I’m not wanting sympathy, partly because I think this is somewhat of a phase in life anyway. If I have to stay in the wilderness (as it often appears) for the next 20 years to move to where God has for me, then I’d rather stay there. What makes it frustrating is when some things look lost. I don’t want to move until God tells me to move. It’s discouraging sometimes looking at where others are and feeling there’s no hope to get even close to where they are. I know there’s hope though. There’s always hope.
In the mean time, I’ve been listening to my pastor at church and many different podcasts. If it weren’t for podcasting, I don’t know where I’d be. Lately I’ve been listening to theMill, Desperation, _tag, and the onething podcasts.