Short and Sweet

I don’t have that much to talk about tonight. It can really all be summed up in one word: tired. I’m very tired. I didn’t get in the bed last night until almost 11:00PM (and probably didn’t fall alseep until after).

Fox News had a tiny story today about a Christian Punk Church. They had both the guy who led it, and someone who runs Summit Ministries. Now first thing, I want to analyze this. Lets just say for an instance I don’t have a side. If I watch this clip and see both sides (which I saw), I’ll see both sides appear to really be seeking God. There are some things in the Bible about judging, however. I, for one, do not care for “televangilists”, I never really have and I don’t foresee that changing anytime soon. However, just because I believe one is wrong, I’m not going to judge them and say they’re not Christians (one side of this was to the effect of: “christians should not have rock music in their church”).

Why is rock music evil and hymns and modern worship “okay”? All of the hymns in churches (what few are left) were written by sinners (Christian or not). The beat, the music, had to come from somewhere (no one can say it doesn’t have rythm and beat). I believe that as time changes, things will change, just like as you grow older you grow out of toys. I believe that what those opposed to rock music in the church are saying is that they want us, as a generation, to find “other music” that we can’t relate to and that we CANNOT worship God in.

To further reiterate my point — someone once said to me that they don’t want to go to heaven because they go to church and they just don’t like “worshipping” God. While that argument is a bad argument, I can understand why they say that (to an extent). When I truly get into worship, there really is no other place I’d rather be. So many, sadly, have not been in true worship.

What is worship and what is religion? What is judgement and what is devine discernment? These need addressing.


Life is but a whisper, but does that mean we have to whisper? Live life loud. I want to be real. As with every post, I’m just going to post whatever comes to my mind and my heart.

Life is but an instance, but yet it can seem so long sometimes. We’re not promised today, nor are we tomorrow. Tomorrow may never come. In as quick an instance as we come from our mothers womb is as quickly as life can be taken away. It’s so sad when I meet people who aren’t really worried about life. Life cound end today — where would we be? Sometimes we “sugar-coat” the place of suffering by saying it’s “the bad place”. There are many bad places here, and compared to hell it’s nothing like the areas we encounter here. I want so desprately to see the people of America turn their hearts towards God. I see so, oh so, many people who go to church that live just like everyone else. So many people claim Christianity (almost 80% do, to be exact), but yet so many act so worldly. I’m not judging them, but aren’t we caled to live to an higher standard? Justifying things we know are wrong just because they “feel” fun … is that really right living? It breaks my heart to see people stray away from the arms of a God who loves them beyond compare.

Investigate my life,
and make me clean

Awesome lyrics by Delirious.

So where do we go from here? After we fall in love with someone, don’t we pursue them? Why don’t we pursue Christ like that? I definatly don’t pursue God like I want, should, or need to. I say I’m bored all the time, yet I never seem to be able to just find that time for Christ. It’s something I need to work on.

Moving right along …

I’ll be going to Colorado Springs, CO at the end of the month. I’ll be leaving on July 27th and I’ll get back on August 2nd. We’re leaving to go to Desperation ’05, it should be awesome. It’s at my old church, New Life, and will last 2 full days, 3 nights. I hope to really just fall in deeper love with Christ while I’m there. The entire time I’m there, I should be at the church, pretty much, so that’ll be just as awesome.

Tomorrow is another work week. I believe I’ll be going into the ghosting area next week, but I’m really not sure where I’ll be at. So far I liked what I did last week the best, I had something to do and all. Last Friday I got my first paycheck I’ve ever got in my life. So that’ll be the start of my college fund, I guess, lol.

I went to bed at 3:00 last night, for some reason. It’s the latest I’ve stayed up … since I don’t know when. I’ve been getting a MySpace account up. I’ve had the account for a while, just never done anything with it (I really hate MySpace, lol). So anyone who wants to can go check it out. 😛

It’s that time again … the time of the entry where … I leave.

God is Good!

History. I love History. I love studying History, one of my favorite channels is the History Channel. I watched about two hours worth today at work. One show was about balistics. Very cool how it all works. 🙂 The other was about tanks and Jeeps. Then I had to do a little work, and then it was time to clock out.

He’s (God’s) so freakin’ awesome!!!!!!!! How do you express feelings for someone who’s blessed you beyond what is even imaginable? Can you? Not in all the words of the dictionary is there a word that can describe his awesome, awesome, greatness. There are times I’m just feeling so down and “hopeless”, but those are the times I ultimatly need to put my eyes on the One who can help me. God is Love. The creator of the universe loves me. He’s just so freakin’ awesome!!!!!

There comes a time when we just need to look at his awesome greatness. I do more asking than thanking Him for all he has done for me sometimes. I mean, Christ gave his whole life up for us just because he loved us, what kind of love is that? I mean, I might give my life up for someone I love greatly and someone who loves me back (such selfish love), but would I give my life up for someone that hated me and wanted nothing to do with me? That’s what Christ did for us. That’s what he died, was beaten for. There’s times when I feel like I can do everything, but then there’s other days where I don’t even want to get out of the bed (well, that’s every morning, but you get my drift). There’s a time when life throws this nasty curve and we’ve got to put our complete faith and trust in the ONLY one who can bring us out. *screams* He’s so freakin’ awesome!!!!!


I’ve had pretty good day. I’ve been restarting the website I started about six months or so ago, Revolution Reality. I hope to keep it going this time, and I hope it grows into something more than just a basic website.

I watched another movie tonight, this time it was The Bourne Supremacy. I already watched it on the big screen, but it came on Starz so I watched it again. It’s a pretty good movie.

Tomorrow is work. I’m suppose to be moving to the Circle Team, so I might actually be doing something … although I might not. Either way, I’m not complaining. I enjoy working there.

There are so many things on my mind and heart right now it’s almost overwhelming. I have no idea what to say, how to say it, what to do, nor how to do it. It’s like bleh. I’m tired of just sitting here following the flow. There comes a time when I’m just so tired of “ho-hum” and I want to go and just do everything I’m called to do. That’s the problem though: what am I suppose to be doing? I’ve asked God with no reply. Maybe my reply is just following on the path I’m going now. I’ve been listening lately, and it’s like even some Christians are against the God I love. I may be called to be a Jeremiah (as in the Biblical one). There are times I see people and just have compassion for them.

There have been times lately that I don’t know if I even want to go to college for computer science anymore. I believe I am suppose to, as I believe I’m going to be used in that area one day, but I really would like to pursue God and follow Him. I’m so confused as to what I’m suppose to do right now. Really I’ve just realized that as I’ve been writing this. I hope God opens a door for something soon. Right now if God called me to go somewhere, even away from home, I would go. This is the first time I’ve actually had that feeling. I don’t want to leave home, but maybe that’s what God wants me to do. Maybe I’m in the areas I am now so I can step out of certain comfort zones that are keeping me bound. I know I’ve totally had to step out of several comfort zones in the past 3 weeks that just one year ago I thought I never could do.

Right now I’m ready to just run. There’s a song by Nichole Nordeman called What If:

What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

The song isn’t exactly in the context I’m using it, but right now I just want to jump and not even worry about anything. Just jump.

I believe I’m going to listen to something from New Life, and then get in the bed, so I’m out.