Author: Justin

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Created to Worship!

I’ve been silent here lately. I’ve not really had much to write about. I’ve been trying to set more of a time a part for God; sometimes it can be tough though. I want to pray and seek God more. Passion ’07 is going to be in Atlanta this year (well, January of next year) I would like to go. I may try to go; maybe I can find a group of people to go with before then. Chris Tomlin and Matt Redman are coming to Auburn on the 17th of next month. I’m thinking seriously about going to that. It’ll be $20, but that’s not too bad.

My family and I committed to Living Water Worship Center tonight.  Tonight’s service was awesome.  I can’t wait to see what God is going to do in this city (and nation!) this year.

This morning I was just really depressed with a lot of things.  I’ve been just worrying about things instead of just letting God handle them.  I have a lot of things I feel like I need (like a job) – but I’ve not been able to find or get those things.  The main “job” related areas I have a longing to be involved in are computers (I favor administration, actually) and church (while that’s broad, I guess within that it’s technical or youth oriented).  Lately it’s been like walking through a desert (the last three years, perhaps?), but I know my perseverance is not in vain.  Sometimes it’s just like the song by Ginny Owens, “If You Want me To”:

So when the whole world turns against me
And I’m all by myself
And I can’t hear You answer my cries for help
I’ll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

I know it’s all in God’s hands.  Guys like to be in control (although we may say we don’t), and I guess jumping off just doesn’t feel safe sometimes.  I have a cartoon of a blindfolded child who’s just walking off of a cliff – and Jesus is right there to catch him.  It’s the faith of a child.  Once you fall off that cliff, you must be totally dependant on God to catch you – even if it’s a great distance away.

I want to go where God sends me.  I’ve been thinking over the past few days of some goals for this year (or maybe next few years).  I’ve made a few goals (finish reading the old testament, for instance).  I want more goals though; I hope I can get involved more in church (and talk more).  I want to go on a mission’s trip.  While that’s the only thing I’ve really been thinking about, it’s important.  I believe it’ll be one of the most awesome adventures I’ve ever had (and I want more adventures!).  I believe it would really alter my life, and I would be sharing the Word of God with people who may have never even heard of Jesus.  I want to do that soon.

Finally, I want to advertise the best Prayer and Worship radio station on the Internet, and that’s The Night Watch.  I’ve had the station on my list for a while but never really checked it out too deep, but when I did I started to really enjoy it.  In the Christian Rock world ChristianRock.net is still, by far number one.

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Updates of Nothingness

Wow, looks like I’ve neglected my blog over the past week or so.  I’ve been trying to think of something to public to write on, but haven’t really had many ideas, so I’ll just flow where I go.

Over the past week I’ve been reading more than I’ve done much else.  I spent a good part of tonight reformatting my laptop and getting it back up to running condition.  I’ve worked a little on MinistryTalk.com tonight.  Tim has wanted to send the actual MP3 messages to a few other servers so that it’s not as load bearing on just one server.  There’s a lot of things that are still yet to be implemented, so I’m hoping to start adding them as the weeks progress.

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Evolution?!

There’s been something that’s caught my attention …. to some extent …. lately.  It’s the little Nasa “Stardust” mission.  I’ve not read up on it or rolled around in it like some people do, but the entire purpose of it had me dumbfounded.  I go to a very popular website who’s main purpose is to provide technology news.  From time to time there comes these topics on evolution.  For instance, there’s some “scientific” test being done in some vacume or something to show how the “Big Bang” occured.  Sometimes it seems like I’m the only one with a level mind.  I’m almost positive if these people were in their right mind, they’d see how foolish they look.  Maybe?  Then there are the rest who aren’t that sure what their right mind even is because everything that’s truth is just an allusion to them.  What?  How can there be no absolutes?  There can’t.  An absolute is “not to be doubted or questioned; positive” (dictionary).  I’ve honestly tried to think of a good reason as to why people believe in evolution.  Do they realize how complex life really is?  Do they realize how if we were just a little closer to the sun we’d burn alive?  A little further we’d freeze?  Do they realize that any sort of “big bang” would have to begin, it self, somewhere?  There could never be an “explosion” that would bring about something if there’s nothing to explode in the first place.  The evidence that has been used to prove evolution has been revoked countless times.  This all makes me wonder — if these people, these scientists, were to try to disprove evolution would they see how foolish and dumb it really sounds, and actually is?  They’ve tried to disprove everything in the Bible but they’ve been, countless times, proven wrong.  First you have those saying the history is wrong — then later you have them find the history to back up that it WAS right.  I wonder if a few were to try to actually prove creation if they would still see evolution as an even feasible solution.  I doubt it.

After a certain amount of time the dating techniques scientists use have proven to be uneffective (thus making the dates wrong).  Almost all early civilizations have an account of a flood.  There has been finds all over that seems to question whether there was an actual civilization that was on earth pre-flood.  Underwater currents could move things and put them in actual layers when the flood waters were to go back to their original states.  Right there could make it look like thousands of years are burried all at once, when in actuallity they weren’t.  A lot of this is just my speculation and reasoning as I know the underwater currents are quite strong, and could easily move things around and make them settle anywhere.  Trying to interperate pre-history from a scientific standpoint may seem good …. but so far they’ve done me no good and have yielded no evidence of anything.  Thus I must ask, why is Nasa, being funded by my tax dollars, allowed to carry on their senseless “discoveries”?  I’m all for exploring the galaxy, it’s interesting the pictures they bring back.  I’m just tired of seeing people waste my money on some crusade to find truth where there is none.

Change of subject now …. we got, in the mail, an invitation for the new movie based on the book by Frank Peretti, The Visitation.  It’s going to be shown in Montgomery and it comes out the 20th.  I can’t wait to go!  I’m going to try to go the day it opens.  I was reading Piercing the Darkness, but I believe I’m going to read the other book I had sitting out (to read after it) … The Visitation.

Well, I have some sort of “essay” work to do for English, so I’m going to go get that done.

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Then It Left

I’ve been more and more busy here lately.  I started back to school.  Thursday was all mixed up — my schedule (along with others) had the wrong room number, so we were all late to class.  If once wasn’t enough, it happened with both of my classes.  That was out of place, never happened to me before.

I finish the book I was reading, “This Present Darkness”.  One of the best books I’ve ever read.  I’ve been reallying thinking about it.  I’ve started reading the next book, “Piercing the Darkness“.  So far it’s a little confusing, but I’m so tired right now anyway.

I woke up (after tossing and turning the entire night) a little before 8 this morning.  I took my sister to work at 9 then headed to the church.  We got a lot of work done.  I painted some and patched the walls that had holes.  It’s really starting to look better (it looks so diffrent from the first time we showed up back in August).  I got home around 5:30.

Now, the real reason why I wanted to write tonight was because of something completely diffrent than what I wrote about.  I want to write about it, but right now I’m so tired and I can’t think straight.  I guess I’ll shorten it into a few sentences. When I was lost (not a Christian), I remember countless times where I worried about everything.  I hated everyone, it was a time I never want to repeat or go into.  Did everything change overnight?  Nope.  At the time I was in like 7th grade — thus, did my homework go away?  I wished.  What did change I can’t explain.  I just know that the evil that was there was washed out in a name that Satan fears and trembles by.  I wouldn’t trade my relationship with Jesus for anything.  Nothing at all.

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Hanging by a Moment!

Christmas break is coming to a close. I go back to school tomorrow. I’ve spent the last day of my vacation reading “This Present Darkness“. I’ve liked all of Frank Perettis other books, but I never thought it’d be like this one. This book is awesome. I’m a slow reader so it takes me a while to read long books … I only got about 115 out of about 370 pages down, but the book is awesome. It’s making me think a little more about the importance of prayer in a way I’ve never thought about. I know prayer is important, but I guess I’ve never saw, thought, or know how important.

The past week or two has been awesome. I can’t explain why, because I don’t know why. I’m more content about things, purhaps. I’m not sure.

Living Water Worship Center made a reading list for the church of scriptures to read through each month so that, by the end of the year, all of the New Testement will be read. There are also two memory verses each month, of while I’ll be trying to memorize, but I’m bad at memorization. Maybe there’s no excuse though. I am trying though. Last night I read from Matthew 1 to 10, it was a great read. I highlight parts of the text I feel is good to re-read later … so last night I highlighted too much. Good read.

I’ve been trying to fix a few things with MinistryTalk.com as of the past few days. I got a little done, but I’m out of ideas for now, sadly. Hopefully I can figure something I can do with it. Hopefully Tim is able to help out some too.

So anywho … I leave everyone with this awesome video found over here. Enjoy.

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Yawn

I’m so tired, but I can’t go to sleep.  So I’m just sitting in my bed trying to do something instead of lay here just trying to go to sleep.  I hate it when that happens … but it happens.  I’ve been thinking about a lot of things today, and really putting it all down is hard, because I’m not sure how to explain it.

Anyhow …

Our friends from Georgia are over visiting.  There wasn’t much going on today, for me anyway.  I probably need to do something productive, which I do sometimes, but sometimes it’s hard to find something to do.  I need a job, but I want to work here in Tallassee because anywhere else just wastes more of my time (when I get off work, I want to go home … not wait 45 minutes and then be home).  I’m thinking about just trying to get a job where my sister works, but I’m not sure I’ll do that just yet.  I’ve just been praying for something to open up … I’m really out of ideas.  All I can do is prayer and have faith, and so that’s what I’m going to do.  God will never fail me.

I watched Remember the Titans tonight (because it came on TV).  We have the DVD, but when we moved the disc became bent, it’s very strange.  None the less, it won’t play anymore.  I almost got half of it to copy, but I could never get the entire thing to copy, so I guess it’s just a loss.  The movie is one of my all time favorites though.  The moral of the story is great, it’s based on a true story, and it’s pretty clean.

Ah, I got a hair cut the other night … finally.  I was starting to have some really long hair, haha.  It’s still much longer than how I use to have my hair, though.  I thought I wouldn’t like it, but turned out diffrent.  Boring, I know.

Well, that’s about all for tonight.  I’m supposed to go to the church tomorrow at 10a.m.  Oh, this reminds me, my church is having a “commitment Sunday” (where you commit to the church, as it doesn’t take membership).  I’m honestly not sure what I’m going to do.  I’m committed, however, I also am committed to my other church.  They offically open their doors on Easter Sunday, so I’ve got some time to pray about it.  As of now I’m not a member of any church (“offically”) nor am I “offically” committed to a church (although I did say I was committed to my other church, though the length of that commitement I didn’t specify).  Right now I think I may just leave it that way, however I’m committed to both — meaning if they ask me to do anything I’ll do it.  I believe this is the way it may stay.  Only prayer will tell.

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Being Seperate

This will be short. I’ve got to get up early tomorrow. After reading the book on holiness, I’ve been thinking more and more about things I’m doing that may be sinful and that must be stopped. My mom let me read something by John Bevere, from his newsletter. The topic — holiness. I’ve heard, read, and saw some things that are happening within the church … and change is coming. It’s going to be a “you’re for me, or your against me”, nothing in between. Lukewarm will no longer be thought of as Christians. I want to get rid of every sinful thing in my life that I’ve let just sit there (while maybe not even realizing it); I want to know God. I’ve yet to clean out a few of my games (which most don’t seem too bad), but I’m thinking about tossing all but maybe two or three (if that). If it’s of the world, directly or indirectly against God, it’s got to go. I’m going to start dedicating one to two hours each day to God. Two hours 24 minutes — that’s ten percent of each 24 hour day. One hour 36 minutes — that’s ten percent of each 16 hour day (which is really about the length that I’m awake each day). I guess my question is this: is 10 percent of each waking part of the day too much to give God … even after all he did for me? I’m going to dedicate ten percent of each day this next week to God.

My church is having a prayer walk soon … I’m kinda excited about it. I’ll probably post more on that later though. It’s time for bed now.