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No Time

I’ve got little time to update this, but I need to update it. I’ve not updated my blog in a few days.

Yesterday I went up to schedule for classes (I decided to come home, then go back up to Montgomery — wasted gas, but not as much time). I thought it was going to be good, but it turned out not. Tallassee High School sent AUM my transcript durring March, that was good then, but they should have been told (by AUM?) to send it again after I graduated. My account was locked and so I can’t register for classes until I fix it. I tried logging in tonight from here at home and it doesn’t let me (I think I tried too many bad PIN numbers and it blocked me). Now I have to call them to unlock that. It’s unfortunate, but I’ll recover I suppose.

I rented The Pacifire last night. It was a pretty good movie. They really aren’t making many really funny movies anymore … and sexual jokes aren’t funny. They’re lame and make the movie bad. On that note, I watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith for the second time. It was a good movie the first time, it was okay the second time. The only problem I have with the movie is the sexual content. Why put that? It doesn’t help the movie sell anything. If I want a movie about sex I’d rent a porno. Lame. Also, the “Christian” family they portrayed was uncalled for as well. I guess I maybe shouldn’t be so mad about that though, because hey … that’s how so many “Christian” families act anyway (the “party” and they made the guy seem dumb, like he wasn’t very educated). Stereotypes tick me off though. Without those two elements the movie would get an excellent rating. It has a good message though: stay married — even through thick and thin.

Today I was on the interstate and some older people were in a truck (with a state government tag) and they’d get in front of me and go really slow, then I’d pass them, and they’d do it again. It happend for probably 10 minutes. It made me laugh, so it’s nothing I’m complaining about … I thought it was funny how they were getting enjoyment out of it (I guess?). I wasn’t mad or anything, but to show them I understood … right before I got off on my exit I speed well ahead of them. So that’s like my random personal story of the month or something.

I bought my LCD monitor. It’s a Samsung. It’s a 19 inch 8ms. It should be here Friday. I’m ready to move on up. I wonder how much diffrent it’ll be compared to my 17 inch.

E-Blah is getting a new hard drive on the server, or might, due to a “failing” hard disk. So it’ll go down for a while tonight. Had to back everything up. It came to about 143MB’s for my little area of the internet over there. FPServer (where my blog is located) still has a good hard drive and is backed up to it’s spare hard drive every night so that nothing can happen to the blog or site.

Well, internet just died. It’s back up now. It’s time for me to hit the hay though.

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Life

The day is Sunday, and I’ve done almost nothing. I went to church and programmed some of E-Blah. I did do some work though, which reminds me, I think I have enough money online to get that LCD monitor I was thinking about getting. 19 inch I believe from NewEgg. I’m not certain I’ll get it though, not sure if I really need it. I think it’d be better on my eyes though … and I wouldn’t have all that CRT radiation beaming into my body (not that sure they put off radiation though).

I played some Age of Empires 3 with some random people online. My team won … I got the highest score of four, although I got that score in the last 10 minutes of the game because my military was more effective than his. All he had was cannons (left anyway).

Tomorrow I go and get a new schedule. I’m not really worried about, I’m just wondering what I’ll do in the two hours free time I have. I sure hope my teacher goes the full time tomorrow. Maybe someone will ask if I want to go to lunch with them? That’d be something new, diffrent, and cool …

Church this morning was alright. Saugahatchee, like every year, has this nasty lady bug epidemic. There’s hundreds just all by the lights. It’s kind of spooky … and nasty. Anywho, the service was about Acts 7, that’s one of the only things I got out of it because I couldn’t hear back in the little room I’m in. The pastor did mention some stuff I’ve been reading and I was happy I finally knew what he was talking about because I read it.

I started in on the book of Ezra, but then I thought that it’d be a good time to re-read Daniel, so that’s where I’m at. I think I may go back and re-read Jeremiah too. I heard something somewhere that made me think, though. I’m not certain if I read it in my Bible or heard it somewhere, but I had never really thought about the Prophets in the Bible that God used, but the people didn’t listen. Thus, even if I ever teach and the church is wiped out because I either offend everyone or they just think I’m horrible, I’ll know that if I’m seriously doing what God has called me to do then I’ll be rewarded some way, somehow.

One topic that I wish I heard just one pastor preach on is the fear of the LORD. I mentioned something about it this morning in Sunday school, in how that if it was taught more in church I think less people would be doing sinful things they do. The Isrealites time and time again had NO fear of the LORD. Josiah was a king who feared the LORD. He knew that God was Holy. He knew that they had disobeyed God, and he was fearful of his nations punishment (which if I remember correctly had already been said in a prophesy to Judah). Josiah changed his entire nation and got rid of all the pagan idols that had been brought into Judah. God then told Josiah that Judah wouldn’t be punished until after he had died (the punishment happened four kings later). Maybe that’s what God has called me to do …

The service tonight was about living in abundance (“Moving from Lack to Overflow”). Overall good message. I have some strange feelings though sometimes. When I got there I really was there, but it’s like I wasn’t thinking about what I was doing. I must get in that mindset after programming and thinking too hard, I’m not really sure.

I was talking to my mom tonight about how I look 14 (for those that are still in the dark: I’m nineteen, and I don’t look 14), and I told her that one of these days someone will say that after being disrespectful and I’ll bounce back and tell them they don’t look 50 either. Purhaps that is a little childish, but so is disrespecting someone. I’m thankful I learned at least a few things though. I know that I’ll keep a lot of teenagers above twenty-somethings, simply because some teenagers have more brains than twenty-somethings.

It’s several days after the fact, but Thanksgiving did occur a few days ago … and I did miss the chance to speak about what I’m thankful for. Saturday we had our “Thanksgiving Dinner” because Thursday we were at my aunts, and Friday my sister worked (I think) and we went shopping. Anyway, durring dinner my dad asked what we were all thankful for, and I said “everything”. So what I’m really thankful for is everything. The specifics (of course not everything) are: life (especially my mom and dad), family, my car (that get’s 37 MPG now!), my online friends, my freedoms (speach and trusting Jesus is two of the best ones), my little support team over at E-Blah, all the people who have helped me out with something, Tim Linden, food, the air I breath, Christian Rock music, faith, my house … the list can go on forever and ever.

Now, it’s 12:30AM, and I will get woke up at 7:30AM, so I need to get in the bed.

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As I sit here on the bed listening to some Christmas music (an e-card, actually), I’m just thinking about today. I got up early this morning (at around 6:30am). I was actually surprised that Wal-mart wasn’t packed out. Neither of the two Wal-marts I went to (Opelika and Auburn) had very many customers. Even the mall didn’t seem to have many people. This was the first time I went to Auburn for their “after Thanksgiving” sales though … I guess the college students sleep in, rather than go shopping (which wouldn’t have been a bad idea, actually). The only thing I bought was a large Caramel Macchiato from Starbucks. It was the first time I’ve got that particular coffee, I believe. I normally get the Frappuccino. It’s coming from Starbucks, so it’s good.

When we got home I really did nothing. I finished reading 2nd Kings. My next read will probably be Ezra since it seems to be somewhat of what happens after 2nd Kings. I may skim through some of the Chronicles, though a lot of it is just family trees. In reading 2nd Kings I saw how merciful God was time and time again, almost begging Isreal. The only time when God finally seemed to have enough was when Manasseh killed innocent people. It was interesting more, though, how when Josiah became king and then had Hilkiah found Gods law that had been pushed away for so many years. When Josiah found out how evil they had become he was obviously had a deep, deep fear and reverance of God. He knew that they had made God angry for deliberatly disobeying him for hundreds of years. One of the best verses in 2nd Kings would be this (23:25):

Never before had there been a king like Josiah, who turned to the LORD with all his heart and soul and strength, obeying all the laws of Moses. And there has never been a king like him since.

That was a statement. Other kings had brought foriegn gods into the Temple of the Lord, and for some reason people were just going about their business like everything was okay. Then you have Josiah who’s sees how evil his nation has been and does everything he can to rid his nation of the evil that had sprung up throughout the years (2nd Kings 23).

On Monday I have to go get my new classes. I hope it’ll be quick and I can get the classes I need. I’m thinking, or hoping, to get maybe three morning classes a day. If not I’ll try to keep the schedule I have now (two classes per day). They had a book with all the classes, but I’ve really not looked at it too much. I might just take it on Monday since I’ll have two or three hours to just do nothing.

It seems like Saturday because I’m used to being off three days a week. It’s hard to think that in less than a month now it’ll be Christmas day. And then just a little longer and it’ll be 2006. It’s hard to imagine. Four years ago I started my little project, E-Blah. It’s hard to believe that was only four years ago. It seems a lot longer, while at the same time seeming like just the other day. Time sure does fly by.

While I’m thinking about it, a good site for movie reviews is Decent Films Guide. Each movie is judged on it moral/spiritual value, recommendability, entertainment value, and by age appropriateness. To back it all up is a professionally done review. I find the reviews on the site to be very good and it aids me into which movies I do and don’t go see. Another good site that reviews just about every movie is Focus on the Families, Plugged In Online. I don’t like Plugged In as good because they don’t rate the movies on moral and spiritual value in an easy to see way (you have to read).

One of the greatest songs ever written, Mary Did You Know, has been recreate by Spoken and is on Happy Christmas Volume 4.

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The Blurry Fading

So I got up, went to school, came home, went to my grand parents and grannys, then game back home. I did nothing of value today (or did I?). I did fix a bug or two with E-Blah I think. Today was cold and rainy. It wasn’t that fun. I like driving in the rain, it’s just that I don’t feel too comfortable using cruise control with it raining. Speaking of which, my cruise control has a mind of it’s own. It’ll all of a sudden just speed up and then forcefully kick itself off for no apparent reason. And then sometimes it just refuses to work. It’s not that bad, it’s just annoying, and without it I slowly creep up with my speed. I sure wouldn’t want to get pulled over and tell the officer my cruise control didn’t work that day. Haha.

Tomorrow is the last day of this week for school. Then it’s Thanksgiving time and then sales – friday (maybe Amazon and Newegg will have some sort of deals). I’ll probably go shopping with the family that day, although I’ll probably get nothing.

Ah, I know what I want for Christmas …

Tomorrow I turn in the first part of my math final [that took me hours to do]. I’m hoping to get an A on it. I looked back over it today and it looked like I did good on it. I think after a while of doing certain problems, some can be relooked over and figured out easier. The algebra is the toughest part of it all, but I think I learned more doing the final than I did in class when we were [quickly] going over the material. I’ve finally got certain things I didn’t get, so that’s good.

I played some Age of Empires 3 again tonight; it appears like ESO finally has fixed the servers. I’ve been getting disconnected a lot less frequently now, fortunatly. It’s understandable I suppose.

I’ve not been able to sleep good these past few nights for some reason (so right now I’m really tired). Maybe the chocolate I eat before bed sometimes keeps me up all night. I probably should eat it in the morning for it to be of more benifit to me. Chocolate is one of my favorite foods.

As I look over to my right I am reminded of our countries heritage — per my American Calendar. The bad part about it is that the picture has been up for the past two months. I change it like once every 3 months. Gotta love it.

Ah, this reminds me. I should haven’t thought about it, but I did. A guy today durring class presented his “project” for our music class. Now while he was reading it he was passively putting in his cheezy anti-American propaganda, but I was just listening. Before he played his “music” selection he gave a little speach about how we should “listen to the lyrics” of his anti-American hate song (it was an anti-war song speaking of how the government lies and how there’s blood all over the place). At first I was just mad. The song came on: I was ticked. I was extremely close to walking out. I’m sick of people sitting passively by while people degrade our military. I’m sick of people in the church sitting passively by when prayer is taken out of schools, when the ten commandments is stolen away from our court houses where they’ve been for hundreds of years (and yes, I am guilty too). I’m sick of it. I’m sick of people sitting there just watching like they’re doing something good in life by seeing our heritage stolen away. While I was mad, I also remember that I should pray for him. See, if I grew up in the back ground he has, I’m pretty sure I’d feel the same way about our military. What I prayed, though, was not just for him, but all of the anti-war people. I pray that the lies and distortion from the media be cut down. I prayed that it would come out to pass in a way so real that not one of the people in congress — even republicans — can refute the evidence for the president. I prayed that by the end of President Bush’s term he’ll come out the most liked president in all of American history. The media as we know it will change soon. A lot of peoples ticked off. The Anti-American and Anti-Christian hate speach filling the air waves of America will be undermised. They will be the underdog. The bitterness and hatered that has been rooted deep down in the media over President Bush’s win in Florida in 2000 will be the demise of the liberal media. Far out liberals will be defeated in their states. Those who stand for morals will stand strong (this does include a few democrats). This has got to the best Talking Points memo I’ve heard in a while.

I’m going to pray until it changes — it will change. It’s changing soon.

Wow, while I was writting this I was thinking about the song “Underdog” by Audio Adrenaline (and how I was gonna listen to it when I got done editing it). Right after I saved it (this is an edit), the song came on ChristianRock.net (which hasn’t came on in quite some time, as it’s an old song). Just thought that was a little too … coincidence.

And that’s my post. Time for bed!

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Relief

The city started putting up the Christmas decorations around Tuesday of last week. They still haven’t finished though, because I remember more color in the decorations (all they have up now is white lights). I’m ready for Christmas time … although I do want it to take it’s time to get here too. Today our church, LWWC, had a thanksgiving supper thing. There was so much food. I had a good time.

Anywho, this post will be short. I don’t have much on my mind right now.

I was checking out Fox News.com, and came across this traitor living in America. For some reason, I’m not sure why he’s still in America, especially when Newdow says bogus crap like this: “I’m a minister of the First Amendmist Church of True Science and I can’t raise funds or anything else because all the coins say that we believe in God, and that’s completely against our principals.” For information on where the phrase “In God We Trust” came from, check this out. I guess this song by Pillar, Indivisible, should be played to this guy. Here’s the greatest lyrics:

The other day I saw the news somebody else complaining
They want the motto taken off of the Benjamin Franklin
They got a problem with my God and that I believe in it
But the don’t got a problem with the money when they spend it
They’re so offended by 4 words that need no explanation
In GOD we trust the motto of this greatest nation
Not just a motto but something that we truly believe
If you don’t like it you can pack a bag and you can leave

Micheal Newdow, take notice … pack your bags and leave if you don’t like those 4 words. End of story. Goodness … next he’ll be trying to get “creator” taken out of the Declaration of Independence. Pretty sad. Something else that’s really ticked me off is this. Personally I wasn’t going to join, so I just didn’t talk to them when they were at my school … but never would I have tried to kick them out. Treason. That’s the crime. Sadly, they won’t do the time.

Here’s a new song by Plumb called “Cut” from her new CD Chaotic Resolve (which is where this posts title came from).

Not a stranger, no I am yours
Crippled anger and tears that still drip sore
Fragile frame aged with misery
When our eyes meet, I know you see

[ Course ]
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so alone
Relief exists I find it when … I am cut

I may seem crazy, I’m painfully shy
These scars wouldn’t be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Oh, I dont want to die
But the only anesthetic makes me feel anything kills inside

[ Course ]

I am not alone,
I am not alone

Not a stranger, no I am yours
Of crippled anger and tears that still drip sore

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so alone
Relief exists I found it when … I was cut

It’s an awesome song. Almost all Christian music has such deep lyrics, maybe that’s why I listen to it all the time. With that, I leave.

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Ah, the Season

This time of the year is so awesome. I love it. It reminds me of all kinds of [good] times in my life. I love how the family all comes together. That’s probably one of my favorite parts of this time of year. The best part of everything is being able to see all the rest of the family open their gifts (I actually don’t like getting gifts). I think it’s so awesome. I can’t wait to start getting the house looking diffrent for Christmas time. I just love it.

I’m ready for Christmas music to start playing on the radio too.

On a news program I was watching about Christmas in America being done away with (the name) I overheard a guy state that stores are “offending” and are “disenfranchise” their customers if they were to mention “Christmas”. For some reason, the 20% of Americans we’re “offending” shouldn’t be living in America if they’re that offended of something so small (as our country has a rich Christian heritage). The software I’ve written, E-Blah, mentions God in it’s credits and over the course of about three years, only four or five people have ever whined about it (which I told them they couldn’t remove). For some reason the rest either overlook it, like it, or just could care less (and hopefully one has read it and changed their life). Those who don’t like it can change forums, I’m not comprimising even in that area just to make everyone happy. I remember when Chevy sponsored a Third Day event and got all these people roared up about how they were sponsoring them. What’s bad about it? Other corporations sponsor crap I don’t care about, why not sponsor something I do care about? So the moral of the story is this: don’t comprimise anything just to make someone else happy. If you get in the position to fall and comprimise one area of your life, business, or family, you’re only setting yourself up for total demise. Even if comprimise means you lose a few means, or even your life, never comprimise. One sin can cause your entire family name to be wiped out.

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Huh? What?

Today began with shoes clanking up and down the stairs. It wasn’t that bad, I just didn’t want to get woke up so early (it was 9:30 or so). Once I got up, though, I found I wasn’t that tired — even if I went to bed at 2am. I finished my math final (the take home part). It took me quite a while to finish it. I bought a new domain today — JustinOsborne.com — it’s not that important, though.

Our pastor and his wife came over tonight for dinner.

I have ideas about all sort of things, and I’m loaded with my thoughts right now. I may just be totally random. ChristianRock.net is doing a promotion (the first one since I’ve listened). They’re giving away an iPod Nano and some CD’s and stuff. Interesting …

I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do now and later in my life. It’s like everything is so quite, like I’m walking through life without direction sometimes. I mean, I have direction, but it’s not a roadmap. It’s like a foggy road that you can only see the next little streach of road. Maybe I know what I’m supposed to do. I have this little test thing I took a while ago (like 4 years ago now) that says what I appeared to be gifted in and such … and it says this: “Your primary motivational gift is: TEACHING; Your secondary motivational gifts are: PERCEPTION and ADMINISTRATION”. Teaching and Administration is pretty straight forward. Perception, though, says that “… have a strong inner prompting and ability to perceive what is right vs. wrong …” and “… are willing to terminate existing relationships to remain loyal to truth”. This also has a thing that says areas I may be good at in the church; the top four being, “Administrative Board Chairman” (70%), Leadership Roles (68%), Intercessor (68%), and Teen Group Director (64%). The “secular” roles are: electrical work (87%), computer programmer (84%), Philosopher (80%), and “Quality Control/Inspector” (75%). There are several more pages in the report. What’s scary is this thing seems to know me like a book.

This “report”, of course, isn’t meant to be “you must do this” or anything and isn’t supposed to be “hard” evidence. The report is, however, very accurate. The top two secular roles that were listed were just what I like to do. The church one, though, I haven’t studied much. I actually didn’t know what was on it. Mrs. Jennifer, the pastors wife, said something about getting me to talk (hehe) and then said I might be a preacher (or something like that), just joking of course. I simply said that I’m not denying it. For the past few months (and years?) I’ve been wanting to go into youth ministry (#4). While not a “preacher” per-se, I do want to help youth. I do think I’ll probably end up teaching from time to time (if not full), though. I’ll have to trust God a ton there … I mean, I don’t even talk now. I’ve complained for so long about looking 14, but I’ve also thought … when I’m 30, I’ll look 17 or so. So hey, it’ll be all good. But I’ve also been thinking over the past month or two … maybe there’s another reason. My previous youth pastor didn’t look his age. Hmm …

I’m stumbling over words, and probably none of that makes sense. It makes sense to me before I write it, but it’s coming out all wrong. So I’m changing thought.

I finished reading 1st Kings today. Yet another very, very interesting book. I learned a lot from just sitting down and spending the time to read several chapters at a time. Tons of good stuff in those books. Very interesting too.

So, it’s 1 AM. I think I’m heading off to bed.