A New Years Resolution?

In less than four hours it’ll be 2006. A lot has happened this year. Now a new year must begin. I’m glad 2005 has left. 2005 has been the best year I’ve had in Tallassee since I moved here almost four years ago, and I’m hoping 2006 will be even better.

Now comes a little New Years Resolution. I’ve honestly never really remember making one (that I really intended to keep), but maybe I’m wrong. By the end of 2006 I will: be speaking more, worshipping GOD much more freely, believe what God has said about me, have some friends (and a girlfriend that exceeds everything on my list), and finish reading the Bible (actually I think that may have been an old resolution, but I’m going to finish everything I’ve yet to read). That’s my list, not too long, but not too short either.

I think those speak for themselves, so I’m going to leave the list alone for now. I’ve been thinking more and more about something: secular music. It’s something I don’t like at all. Maybe it’s too deep for some people to understand, but there’s a reason to why I don’t like it. Speaking from a Christian stand point, the majority of the lyrics in non-Christian (secular) songs are against morallity. When we make the decision to become a Christian, things have to change. This includes music. Then there’s the: why? Why we should change our music style is because of the lyrics. Some will say they can “relate to the lyrics”, which is understandable — for a non-Christian. Most secular songs should not be “relatable” for Christians — especially single (unmarried) Christians.

There are some okay songs written for married people in the “secular” arena. Spoken has some awesome lyrics relating to relationships (see “Wind in My Sails” and “Sleep Well Tonight“). The good thing about these songs, though, is that it doesn’t really have to be directed to a wife … because it’s not talking about sex or anything else. Then there are songs for people having relationship trouble. BarlowGirl has a song called, “I Need You to Love Me“, and while it’s not directly related to “relationship” trouble, it’s an honest song written directly to God.

Secular music puts you in the center — sex is about you, drugs make you feel good, women are objects, men are untrustworthy (although, sadly, this is true a lot of times). With Christian music — God is number one, sex is not about you, women are sisters, men are spiritual leaders. These are the reason why secular music is not fit for a Christian.

There are many awesome Christian groups out there. Sadly, the good groups seem to be overlooked, with some not as good being “propelled” — even in the secular world. There are many good Christian bands out there, yet very few ever see light outside of the Christian music industry (unless they comprimise to some extent). Generally, I’ve found those that have “crossed over” tend to produce worse content (I love the old Switchfoot, dislike much of the new). Am I really trying to just make a case for Christian music? Maybe. Moreover, though, I’d like to see Christians listenings to Christian music. Why? Life is all about God, singing about some girl your whole life is seriously on the verge of insanity. I’m going to forever love, cherish, and honor my future wife — I’m not, however, going to worship her, use her for sex, or anything else.

That’s where I stand on that issue. The music I relate to most is Praise and Worship music, and the truth be told, that should be the music all Christians should relate to most.

Life

The day is Sunday, and I’ve done almost nothing. I went to church and programmed some of E-Blah. I did do some work though, which reminds me, I think I have enough money online to get that LCD monitor I was thinking about getting. 19 inch I believe from NewEgg. I’m not certain I’ll get it though, not sure if I really need it. I think it’d be better on my eyes though … and I wouldn’t have all that CRT radiation beaming into my body (not that sure they put off radiation though).

I played some Age of Empires 3 with some random people online. My team won … I got the highest score of four, although I got that score in the last 10 minutes of the game because my military was more effective than his. All he had was cannons (left anyway).

Tomorrow I go and get a new schedule. I’m not really worried about, I’m just wondering what I’ll do in the two hours free time I have. I sure hope my teacher goes the full time tomorrow. Maybe someone will ask if I want to go to lunch with them? That’d be something new, diffrent, and cool …

Church this morning was alright. Saugahatchee, like every year, has this nasty lady bug epidemic. There’s hundreds just all by the lights. It’s kind of spooky … and nasty. Anywho, the service was about Acts 7, that’s one of the only things I got out of it because I couldn’t hear back in the little room I’m in. The pastor did mention some stuff I’ve been reading and I was happy I finally knew what he was talking about because I read it.

I started in on the book of Ezra, but then I thought that it’d be a good time to re-read Daniel, so that’s where I’m at. I think I may go back and re-read Jeremiah too. I heard something somewhere that made me think, though. I’m not certain if I read it in my Bible or heard it somewhere, but I had never really thought about the Prophets in the Bible that God used, but the people didn’t listen. Thus, even if I ever teach and the church is wiped out because I either offend everyone or they just think I’m horrible, I’ll know that if I’m seriously doing what God has called me to do then I’ll be rewarded some way, somehow.

One topic that I wish I heard just one pastor preach on is the fear of the LORD. I mentioned something about it this morning in Sunday school, in how that if it was taught more in church I think less people would be doing sinful things they do. The Isrealites time and time again had NO fear of the LORD. Josiah was a king who feared the LORD. He knew that God was Holy. He knew that they had disobeyed God, and he was fearful of his nations punishment (which if I remember correctly had already been said in a prophesy to Judah). Josiah changed his entire nation and got rid of all the pagan idols that had been brought into Judah. God then told Josiah that Judah wouldn’t be punished until after he had died (the punishment happened four kings later). Maybe that’s what God has called me to do …

The service tonight was about living in abundance (“Moving from Lack to Overflow”). Overall good message. I have some strange feelings though sometimes. When I got there I really was there, but it’s like I wasn’t thinking about what I was doing. I must get in that mindset after programming and thinking too hard, I’m not really sure.

I was talking to my mom tonight about how I look 14 (for those that are still in the dark: I’m nineteen, and I don’t look 14), and I told her that one of these days someone will say that after being disrespectful and I’ll bounce back and tell them they don’t look 50 either. Purhaps that is a little childish, but so is disrespecting someone. I’m thankful I learned at least a few things though. I know that I’ll keep a lot of teenagers above twenty-somethings, simply because some teenagers have more brains than twenty-somethings.

It’s several days after the fact, but Thanksgiving did occur a few days ago … and I did miss the chance to speak about what I’m thankful for. Saturday we had our “Thanksgiving Dinner” because Thursday we were at my aunts, and Friday my sister worked (I think) and we went shopping. Anyway, durring dinner my dad asked what we were all thankful for, and I said “everything”. So what I’m really thankful for is everything. The specifics (of course not everything) are: life (especially my mom and dad), family, my car (that get’s 37 MPG now!), my online friends, my freedoms (speach and trusting Jesus is two of the best ones), my little support team over at E-Blah, all the people who have helped me out with something, Tim Linden, food, the air I breath, Christian Rock music, faith, my house … the list can go on forever and ever.

Now, it’s 12:30AM, and I will get woke up at 7:30AM, so I need to get in the bed.

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As I sit here on the bed listening to some Christmas music (an e-card, actually), I’m just thinking about today. I got up early this morning (at around 6:30am). I was actually surprised that Wal-mart wasn’t packed out. Neither of the two Wal-marts I went to (Opelika and Auburn) had very many customers. Even the mall didn’t seem to have many people. This was the first time I went to Auburn for their “after Thanksgiving” sales though … I guess the college students sleep in, rather than go shopping (which wouldn’t have been a bad idea, actually). The only thing I bought was a large Caramel Macchiato from Starbucks. It was the first time I’ve got that particular coffee, I believe. I normally get the Frappuccino. It’s coming from Starbucks, so it’s good.

When we got home I really did nothing. I finished reading 2nd Kings. My next read will probably be Ezra since it seems to be somewhat of what happens after 2nd Kings. I may skim through some of the Chronicles, though a lot of it is just family trees. In reading 2nd Kings I saw how merciful God was time and time again, almost begging Isreal. The only time when God finally seemed to have enough was when Manasseh killed innocent people. It was interesting more, though, how when Josiah became king and then had Hilkiah found Gods law that had been pushed away for so many years. When Josiah found out how evil they had become he was obviously had a deep, deep fear and reverance of God. He knew that they had made God angry for deliberatly disobeying him for hundreds of years. One of the best verses in 2nd Kings would be this (23:25):

Never before had there been a king like Josiah, who turned to the LORD with all his heart and soul and strength, obeying all the laws of Moses. And there has never been a king like him since.

That was a statement. Other kings had brought foriegn gods into the Temple of the Lord, and for some reason people were just going about their business like everything was okay. Then you have Josiah who’s sees how evil his nation has been and does everything he can to rid his nation of the evil that had sprung up throughout the years (2nd Kings 23).

On Monday I have to go get my new classes. I hope it’ll be quick and I can get the classes I need. I’m thinking, or hoping, to get maybe three morning classes a day. If not I’ll try to keep the schedule I have now (two classes per day). They had a book with all the classes, but I’ve really not looked at it too much. I might just take it on Monday since I’ll have two or three hours to just do nothing.

It seems like Saturday because I’m used to being off three days a week. It’s hard to think that in less than a month now it’ll be Christmas day. And then just a little longer and it’ll be 2006. It’s hard to imagine. Four years ago I started my little project, E-Blah. It’s hard to believe that was only four years ago. It seems a lot longer, while at the same time seeming like just the other day. Time sure does fly by.

While I’m thinking about it, a good site for movie reviews is Decent Films Guide. Each movie is judged on it moral/spiritual value, recommendability, entertainment value, and by age appropriateness. To back it all up is a professionally done review. I find the reviews on the site to be very good and it aids me into which movies I do and don’t go see. Another good site that reviews just about every movie is Focus on the Families, Plugged In Online. I don’t like Plugged In as good because they don’t rate the movies on moral and spiritual value in an easy to see way (you have to read).

One of the greatest songs ever written, Mary Did You Know, has been recreate by Spoken and is on Happy Christmas Volume 4.

Hindsight …

Sometimes there comes a point in everyones life when you’ve just got to stop and look back in hindsight over life. Unfortunatly, that’s probably not going to have anything to do with this post.

Today was great! Almost a week ago I got a new sunroof (ah, my old one was broken). Last night it rained — so it was the test to see if it was installed right, and didn’t leak. It passed. I got my credit card in the mail today (which I didn’t get to make payments on things, but rather to buy stuff online and possibly gas). After school I called the advisor center to set an appointment to schedule my classes for the fall semester. I’ve called every every day or so for the past week or so. Finally got someone. This is why e-mail is better; you get a response faster and the recipient can reply whenever they wish. The only downside to that is most students don’t know how to use e-mail. It was rather funny the first few weeks of class when a room full of 30 people has five people that their e-mails bounce back. Note to readers: make your e-mail short and sweet (for a great example, look at my e-mail address). Church tonight was good, as always. I had some homework … and part of a math final (which is take home) to do. The math final took me about an hour or so to do one problem (so I’ll do one problem each night, as the teacher recommended). I do hope I get those 10 points on that problems. That’s a waste of time if I don’t (and I didn’t learn anything from mistakes on those).

I opened my draw full of important stuff (such as candy) and realized I’ve been eating too much chocolate, too fast. I need to either buy some (dark) chocolate in bulk (and pay a fortune), just pay in tiny increments (and pay a fortune times a half), or just wait until people give me more chocolate for some special occasion (and pay nothing). I do think that bulk idea sounds good though — those special occasions only come three or four times a year …

Recently, I’ve finished reading 1st and 2nd Samuel, so now I’m into 1st Kings. I believe I’m at the 16th or 17th chapter. I’m actually learned a good bit from it (although I’m not studying it in depth). There’s so much to learn in those chapters. One things that really stands out is generational curses. One guy can lead his entire family to total ruin, which is what several did. I know over the course of my lifetime my mom has researched our family tree and used some of that information pray against generational curses within the family. She’s told me a few (a lot of my more distant relatives, for example, have been alcohol/drug addicts). This is a topic I could really expand, but I think right now just isn’t the time. Also, it’s midnight, I really need get to bed.

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So life’s good.

I turned on the news and low and behold they know where Judge Alito stands on “abortion”. So they talk about it for a while, which was something written like 15 years ago, and then they get this woman who essentially says, “We’ve been able to legally kill our babies for the past 40 years, this judge can’t take away our women rights and let us stop this practice!” Now I’ve got to agree with her, they have been murdering their babies for a while. Actually she didn’t actually say that, but hey — that’s what they’re doing, and they do feel it’s a right to do so. Heck, just because my sin nature might like to do things that are not right, that doesn’t make it right. I guess it all goes back to what I’ve been talking about in other entries. Sadly, these women right people still either haven’t done their research or are living in denial too far for me to phatom. Wow … way out there.

The message last night at church was on when to confront things. One of the things that really stuck out that Chris said was that sacrifice isn’t (*gasp*) giving God your sin. Now for some reason I’ve heard all these people always saying (or maybe just alluding to) that giving a sacrifice to God is giving God your sin. So I thought about it for a few minutes, giving God a sacrifice can be pretty much anything. Giving God a habbit, making time for Him, giving God what’s his (10% — and yes, this is Biblical, and don’t try to justify that it’s not for you), or basically anything else. An awesome quote, that kind of fits along these lines, is by Yoda: “Let go of everything you fear to lose”. This is something we must do. We must be willing to give God everything — even things we may fear to lose. We should not be fearful of losing anything.

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Among other things, my cars sunroof is finally fixed. It’s good to have it working. My cruise control, though, has decided to work when it wants to. Sometimes it’ll work fine. Sometimes it won’t set at all. Sometimes when I set it, it keeps increasing speed until it literally forces itself off (it’s not the gradual letting off of the gas). Hopefully it’ll start working right soon.

It’s hard to imagine almost — another year almost come and gone. It seems just like yesterday that I graduated. Time really flys by as you get older. Thanksgiving will be here oh, so soon. Finals will be here soon (although I’m not really thinking much about those yet). While I just turned 19, it seems like it was just a months ago that I was 16 getting my drivers license. Tim posted this picture on his blog:

A picture of the 2005 Christmas countdown ...

Ah, a Christmas countdown, what we always needed.

Drown Me in Your Love

Last night I went, we all went to Auburn (my cousins and Jenna and her boyfriend). It started out all right with us going to the mall and then getting a bite to eat. When we went out to the theater things went downhill. I had already picked out a movie — which was all right with everyone before we left — but once we got there, Jenna made up her mind she was not going to watch the movie I had picked out. She looked at the board, saw “Prime”, and said she wanted to see that. I was fine with it — as long as she called my mom first. She obviously knew that it would not be a movie my mom would approve of. I then said we could go watch it, but when we got home; my mom WILL know what movie we went and saw. Of course this did not tinker her bells any. So I just got tired of standing there and we all left. That leads me to where the real problem lies…

This night may very well be the last night I go anywhere with any of them for quite some time. The truth of the matter is this: I am not compromising in what I do just for the sake of being liked. Sure, I do not have many friends — and possibly this is why. I would rather have no friends than have only one friend who I compromised everything I stand for with constantly. The last two times I went somewhere with my cousins I’ve had to compromise with them (by going to the parking lot once and “racing” on another occasion) and this time I wasn’t having it. Sure, they may be mad at me, but I would rather them be mad at me than I have to come home and repent of everything I did that night. I am not going to compromise anymore. I am trying so very hard not to judge anyone, but when people that confess to be Christians and then compromise — it does not look good. I do not want to have that kind of guilt and conviction in my life for myself.

There are jokes sometimes that people share and when I do not laugh, I am sure people think I am stuck up. I process things and think of things a lot more often than most people. If the joke is dirty, I am not going to make the person feel good because they know how to tell a dirty joke. If the joke is funny but not dirty or mean spirited, I am fine with it although I may not laugh (as I am probably thinking too hard on it). Sometimes I do not laugh and then turn the joke on them when I act serious about it. That is just another one of the ways that I am different. Being different is so awesome, sometimes it can get you down though if you do not compromise and do what others want you to. Sometimes I feel all alone, but feelings are not truth.

Recently I’ve been reading 1st Samuel (actually I finished it), and found several key fundamentals that either got lost in time, or just have been erased due to “offending people”. One of these fundamentals is that of parents. Eli’s sons were wicked due to lack of discipline (1st Samuel 3:13) he and his entire family died younger than they were supposed to. This is why parents are supposed to discipline their children — if they do not they are sinning. That one sin could cost their sons or daughters’ life, and even more — their own life.

Another interesting thing I found in 1st Samuel is this — although David was running from Saul and feared for his life constantly, David would not put a hand to Saul. His army tried to get him to once and David almost went through with it but only cut off part of his clothing. David had an awesome fear of the Lord. David knew that Saul was God’s anointed King. David feared God so much that he would not even let the person who boasted of killing Saul live. David also killed the men who killed Saul’s remaining son. David had a fear of God. David never spoke a word against Saul. David sung a song upon Saul’s death morning his death! Saul was chasing David, yet David respected him and did not demand his right to King. David knew he was going to become King, but he also knew it was not by his timing but God’s. Today God still has anointed people, some may seem crazy (David acted crazy once), some may be poor, and some may be rich. The truth of the matter is that we must make it a priority not to speak against anyone God has chosen — EVEN if we do not agree with whom it is or how they act. This is something my moms really let me know that even if I may not agree with some people on TV, I need to make it a priority not to say anything against them. I may be speaking against God. I want to have a fear of the Lord that is great like that of King David. Sure, David sinned many times but he always had true, from the depths of his heart, repentance.

Found in1st Samuel 15 verses 22 thru 23 (NLT quoted) is the last point:

What is more pleasing to the LORD: your burnt offerings and sacrifices or your obedience to his voice? Obedience is far better than sacrifice. Listening to him is much better than offering the fat of rams. Rebellion is as bad as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as bad as worshiping idols.

This scripture is awesome in that God is not as pleased with what we do for him, but rather or not we obey him. Delayed obedience is disobedience. This one act added to the things Saul did against God, which in the end put an end to his family’s line of kings in Israel. Rebellion is as bad as witchcraft. That is a powerful statement. Today witchcraft has been “glamorized” by Hollywood. Sadly, more and more people are trying to justify what they watch on TV just so they do not feel guilty about it. I recently watched “The Notebook”, a well-put together movie. I really enjoyed the story, it showed a mans deep love for his wife. The fact is — that movie was morally offensive. It goes directly against the scripture numerous times. The story was great; the adultery could have been left out. Those parts DID NOT add to the movie, it took away from it. I would have been ashamed if I had taken a girl to such a movie. When we compromise a little thing, it puts just a little foothold for Satan to enter our lives. When it goes outside the realm of just TV and actually committing those sins, you have just reaffirmed that the foothold was firmly planted in your life. I’m tired of people telling me I can do stuff and it’ll be alright when it’s simply trying to get me to compromise my faith to satisfy my flesh.

I have been there; I have listened to the worldly music. I have committed adultery (both physical and mental). I have watched movies that were morally offensive. In all three areas, looking back, I can honestly say that they did NOTHING good for me in the end. They caused pain and hurt. Sure, I can try — and probably could — make a great argument why all of these are all right to do. “I can relate to worldly music”, for instance, is a great excuse for justifying listening to it. “We’re going to get married, so nothings wrong with having sex” is also an awesome excuse. “Oh come on, it’s just a movie, it’s not real”, also a perfect excuse. Now the truth in each is this:
Music: you should not “be able to relate” to having sex outside of marriage, not forgiving your friend for the pain they caused you, or about leaving your husband/wife for some other man/woman.
Adultery: truth of the matter is 99% of those who say this, never end up getting married. They may have a kid or two, but marriage never comes about in the whole ordeal. I have been there (minus the kid) — it does not work out.
Movies: Most people are visual. Mix that with audio and you have two senses being entertained. You only have to see something once that will entertain your mind for decades to come (nudity, for example). There are evil spirits that are seeking souls in theaters, they are the best place to influence people. The moviegoer is not proactive. The one watching the movie is simply sitting there. Horror movies are very good about this. Remember that 2nd Timothy 1:7 (KJV) says, “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” Yet that is what horror movies do. They plant a spirit of fear within us.

Justifying sin leads to two sins, which may in turn lead to life without Christ.

I know I have done things against Christ. I am a sinner. I try every day to live for Christ, no matter if I feel like it or not. Sometimes I fail, but that is the time when I have to pick up my cross and just keep following Jesus. I was at a retirement ceremony today for my uncle, and he played a song about the American flag. It made me proud, but it made me think. What if the flag at Fort McHenry had fallen to the British? What if it had fallen? Where would we be today? Our flag had fallen everywhere, but there were men that stood there giving it all they had to keep that flag, at that Fort, flying. That is what we have to do in our relationship with Christ. If the battle around us wages and the oceans roar and we feel like all hope is lost — we must press forward, no matter what. Just like that flag — if we drop our cross, we have to pick it back up. Our thoughts need not own us. Our past must not put us in a rut that cannot be overcome. We have to pick our cross back up and follow Jesus. It will not be easy. It was not easy defending Fort McHenry. When the storm was over, and that flag still stood though it proved that America would not be defeated. Even when the bombs are bursting all around us and we feel like all hope of life has failed, we must stand firm and get back up.

What? I was never told that!

This past week or so has been good. Didn’t do much … actually I programmed a LOT. I got the Age of Empires 3 game, and then I played it. That’s about it. Church was awesome on Wednesday — talked about what it takes to be a Christian leader today. It was pure discussion, that’s always fun. I’ve been working on another site recently that allows churches to add their sermons/messages online so people can download them. I hope some churches hurry up and apply …

Really though I want to rant. Today I turned on the news for like 30 to 45 minutes and all I heard was stuff about Libby. Personally, I don’t care about that crap. Secondly it sounded to me like it was more of a he said/she said thing than anything. Sounds like there is little to no truth in everything. Just someone trying to accuse someone else of something they didn’t do. I guess we’ll find out — but again, who cares? Why does my money get wasted on something like this?! Very lame. I hope his remarks about it come true though.

Next item … I love history. I learned stuff today about the early colonies and such. Jamestown, the first American colony, was founded in 1607 … in 1611 church became a requirement — by law. Now that’s all well and good … but concidering that before 1611 the colony was doing pretty bad and most had died, that says something. In the years to come it would birth the country known today as America. Oh, and Pocahontas became a Christian and changed her name to Rebecca. For some reason, I never got that part of history in my books.

My old church was on Dateline tonight, it was alright. At least NBC tried to get both sides … I guess. The only thing is so many people stereotype people and church (as a whole) before they go by what they see or have heard on TV. The truth is, when you’re in God’s presense, sometimes you might just do things you wouldn’t “normally” do, and being your first time … they might look weird from the outside. But if you’re on the inside, then you know without a doubt that what you’re seeing and expeirencing is real. No one can tell you diffrently.

Finally, I’ve been thinking … and I realize now that overall people seem to keep certain things as “you don’t discuss” material. The politically incorrect stuff, just keep them to yourself. The problem is, they’ve got to be discussed. That’s a thought I probably need to work more though …

I’m tired, I need some rest.